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Seems to be the only thing that's in my head at the moment. I'm totally done with my everyday life and all the problems which are taking possession of me! I don't know where to go or where to leave the crushing silence around me. All I know is that I'm absolutely confused. I would love to drown my fears and hopes, but it seems like I'm not able to do so. I think that's why I am so pissed of everything that's crossing my path right now! The past few days were more than just perfect, everything I've ever dreamed of, but on the other hand they showed me that there won't be more, never ever! There can't be more. And I have to accept this, cost what it may! I should be satisfied with the situation, but I just can't get enough, that's my biggest problem and my greatest mistake! I always want it to be better than just good. I want more and more. And so I'm about to destroy everything I have now. Ridiculous!